I've gone private

In order to protect my baby from the evil people in the world I have gone private so that I can post about her as much as I want :) If you are reading this you must be "allowed" to see my blog, so welcome! :)

FYI: I use this blog for my personal feelings, crafts, and whatever else I like. If you want to see our family blog that has all the fun adventures we take together daily it is also private and you will need permission to see it: walkersforeverandever.blogspot.com

I hope you enjoy reading along! I promise I'm going to try to post more often!

New Mood

I am going to try to get better at many things in my life, blogging being one of them. To do this I need to improve my time management... we'll see how this goes. But I would like to inform you of a specific thing I am doing to improve this blog :) I am going to start sharing my crafts! Yay! <-At least I think so ;) I am very excited for this! Secondly, I want to make my blog better, but I am blogger-illiterate so I may need some help. Anyone want to offer to teach me their tips for making a blog awesome? I don't even know how to include links to a word...so if you want to help please leave me a comment! I have skype and facebook and we could get chatting away. Thanks!

Procrastinator to the Max...or something

So I'm feeling like a horrible student this week... I had a paper due Monday that I have yet to write, and I am also falling more and more behind in my studies for this week which will likely make my assignments due tomorrow and Monday also late...

It's sad because I was doing so well, then I just wanted to play and enjoy the holiday and put it off, then I got a cold which included a horrible headache. I really cannot wait until I am done with school one day. I really wish that day was here already.


At least the rest of my life is not a lost cause! I actually have done pretty well with the house keeping and other life requirements. I just want to cuddle my baby, play with my baby, cuddle my hubby, and talk with family. Is that too much to ask!?

Thank you.

Accomplished :)

I feel very accomplished this last week :) I have had a ton more energy and have got a lot done! Not that it is important for anyone reading this to know, but I would like to list some of those simple accomplishments that seem like such a big deal to me :)

Cleaned and organized the baby's room
Attended a family wedding
Had Claira blessed at church
Threw a get together after Claira's blessing at my house
Tended my niece and Wayne's cousin along with Claira
Did 6 loads of laundry and folded/hung everything
Did three loads of dishes
Lots of school work as usual
Cleaned the kitchen
Watched a lot of movies
Cuddled my husband and baby
Changed a million dipers
Fed Claira about every two hours daily
And am still in the process of doing more laundry, cleaning, and hw.

Go me!

“Squirel”

I hate it when I feel like this... By THIS I mean many things: like my throat hurting from my sinuses, feeling exhausted all the time, dreading schoolwork, not being able to focus. i find myself asking lately, why do i feel like i can't function properly? have i put too much on my plate or am i just being lazy? i feel lazy...or rather distractes. how am i going to make myself get things done and on time? it might help if i felt settled in...but i never feel that way because things are constantly changing. i share my home with others who sometimes make me uncomfortable, i have a new class every 5 weeks, my husband is constantly habing new ideas of how we could change things to 'make our lives better' but we don't evem really kniw what there is we can control to fix our buzy schedules and aquire money to not only pay bills but let us have a little fun, and i just had a cute little baby that needs a lot of love and time and is already showing how she is constantly changing.

what i really need to do is buckle down, find a way to focus on the important things, and get my life in order. too bad there aren't two of me!

a much needed break/a not needed illness

this weekend was so great! Our little family got to take a break and travel to farson, wy for a baby blessing in the family. it was so good to get out! and the best part was that wayne and i actually had time to talk like we used to and just be best friends again :) that's all we needed and now things are great again! so i guess the busyness of our lives was the problem because it didn't leave enough time for us to be best friends.

there was one bad part this weekend though...saturday morning (before we left) we awoke to find claira sick with a very stuffy head cold. so we got her into the doctor and luckily he didn't think she was showing signs of RSV so we didn't have to take a trip to the hospital. instead he put her on meds to treat the suspected ear ache and sent us on our way. she's getting better little by little, but it's definitely a long process.
and then on sunday to top it all off i started getting sick with her cold and man is it miserable! i feel so bad she has to go through this being only 3 weeks old. and then not too surprisingly (because this cold was/is obviously catching) wayne started coming down with symptoms sunday night. so now we are all in bed trying to recover.

emotional

Am I a drama queen? I think very much on the emotional side of the brain. Is it because of my theatre training? or am i just an emotional person? lately wayne and i have been having a hard time; is it that we're purposely hurting each other, do we not know how to communicate well anymore, is life too stressful, did we make some wrong choices, can we not understand each others emotions, do we not truely care enough anymore, or is it just a symptom of these 6 weeks of post-partum and how annoying that is? Well, whatever it is  know it's not permanent, but it's still really annoying. i hate that we upset each other and dont listen very well right now. i miss my best friend and emotional support. maybe life is just way too stressful to be healthy right now... but what can be changed? i don't think there is anything that we control that can be changed without changing our goals and dreams. that being said, i guess we choose this.