“Squirel”

I hate it when I feel like this... By THIS I mean many things: like my throat hurting from my sinuses, feeling exhausted all the time, dreading schoolwork, not being able to focus. i find myself asking lately, why do i feel like i can't function properly? have i put too much on my plate or am i just being lazy? i feel lazy...or rather distractes. how am i going to make myself get things done and on time? it might help if i felt settled in...but i never feel that way because things are constantly changing. i share my home with others who sometimes make me uncomfortable, i have a new class every 5 weeks, my husband is constantly habing new ideas of how we could change things to 'make our lives better' but we don't evem really kniw what there is we can control to fix our buzy schedules and aquire money to not only pay bills but let us have a little fun, and i just had a cute little baby that needs a lot of love and time and is already showing how she is constantly changing.

what i really need to do is buckle down, find a way to focus on the important things, and get my life in order. too bad there aren't two of me!